a punk.

i can feel it comming.

summer . friends . love?
at this moment nothing counts and thats great.

whatever .
i think the whole day.
because my life had sucked soo long,
whatever .
whatever. go on dancing ;D


.picture : vampire weekend . from flickr.

alone from now.?!

i tried so hard and get so far but in the end it doesn't even matter.!

.start with something new.
thats in my mind.
something terriefied
something black and blue.
something new.


.but i alway say the same.
that there would be something new.
god damn it is never true.
please someone should really show me the way.!

hell yeah. and oh my fucking god.! aren't right !!

. . .wednesday oh wednesday
if i could stay 16 forever than wednesday would never come.
if someone could tell him i would die than he would never come.
if i wouldn't have talked to him, . . he would never know. me



shut up english gramma. ^^

I'm standing at the abyss.
and looking into the deep.
I need someone to miss.
Or someone i can keep.
what had happend to me.?
and where is he?

why does this sound so dramatic.?
or is this just so hypothetic.?

sweet dream?!

someone wrote play with me on my forehead!!


but it isn't okay.!!!


>>Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused <<

[sweet dream _ marily manson]

some problems to discuss.!

frist of all.
there's he!.
secoundly there is this "bill" which a didn't had payed.
or i don't know the right way to describe it.
then there is jana .
and oh my good i want to go home.!

after the sun comes the cookie.!

they said to me don't like him.
they said to me take care.
they said to me he's an ass.

i don't mind.
i had to realise that i didn't need to choose.
because he had chosen!
but it was too late.
i had choose him.!

>>don't break , don't break my heart!<<>

what happend to my sunshine boy.?

he's clam.
he has the perfection of selfconfidence.
he's clever.
good looking.


but he is to perfekt.
what ever will be he would make me smile
i would say. :)

and there is one thing i would never do again.
to love !

staying doesn't mean, i like u.

ha.
theres this aweful tast in my mouth.
that sucks.
there are this hills of fat in me.
there is this suppressed feeling that i hate him.
just because of his voice.

so I'm failing
or I'm just to stupid to recognise that I'm dreaming . . .
what ever today's Wednesday.

and in the end we 'll see what happend.!