.don't beeing myself while I'm having breakfast

what shoud i do do do do .

he / she / it kills me!

and he and he and he makes me wanna get completly confused!

inside the know outside they grow.

forgotten.
this sense of happieness whitchs contains in every smile.
looking outside and see that the winter changed into a sea of lovers and couples and kissing people.


terrified of the knowledge that at this moment your live turns to the worser side.
the side where you aren't able to shout or evern to speak out your fears cause this fear already chought you.!

scared scared scared.!

[when i see you standing there, wanting more from me,
and all i can do is try.]
[nelly furtado]

in my head.head.head.

. this week was stressing me more than ever...
.but it gets better.

hoplessly i think there won't be a boy who could every get along with me.
and acceptfully i try to unterstand why .


>I still press your letters to my lips.
so if you love me let me go.
my smile was taken long ago.<

[slipknot-snuff]

not like this again.

webcam webcam webcam.
everyday.
oh. oh. it' was great.


todays highscore : 5 people. o.O
at this moment : no one.

: D
i've really no idea what is happening at the moment.
my life changes and i don't know
but for the first time I'm not afraid : DD

o . this.

> would he hear me if i called his name?
> would he hold me if he knew my shame?

tears [don't fall?!]

i don't know.
what i should say.
everything is so confusing,
wednesday i was " dancing drinking and losing my mind "
and today i have to learn

. . . and i also find no love .

> can anybody help me make it better?

a punk.

i can feel it comming.

summer . friends . love?
at this moment nothing counts and thats great.

whatever .
i think the whole day.
because my life had sucked soo long,
whatever .
whatever. go on dancing ;D


.picture : vampire weekend . from flickr.

alone from now.?!

i tried so hard and get so far but in the end it doesn't even matter.!

.start with something new.
thats in my mind.
something terriefied
something black and blue.
something new.


.but i alway say the same.
that there would be something new.
god damn it is never true.
please someone should really show me the way.!