when you see the truth.!?!

when you are just sitting
in your own world of trouble and sadness, cause the only thing you want is, not to be here.
you don't see that the world around you is turing !
you don't want to talk to the others cause they are not like you
"they can't understand" you always say to yourself.
but they understand you !
but you refuse to believe it !

so the time goes round and round .
and when you're comming home everything has changed too and you also refuse to believe it...

for me the time has come to believe that:

all my old friends i never know.
and all the friends i have here , i don't like or i have scared them away.


so now i have noone as a real good friend
and i need this so much that i can't life write at the moment.
this is also the problem why i can't talk write ....



.the more you took away yourself.
.the more you are alone.
.the more you talk with your friends.
.the less you are at home.
;D