when you see the truth.!?!

when you are just sitting
in your own world of trouble and sadness, cause the only thing you want is, not to be here.
you don't see that the world around you is turing !
you don't want to talk to the others cause they are not like you
"they can't understand" you always say to yourself.
but they understand you !
but you refuse to believe it !

so the time goes round and round .
and when you're comming home everything has changed too and you also refuse to believe it...

for me the time has come to believe that:

all my old friends i never know.
and all the friends i have here , i don't like or i have scared them away.


so now i have noone as a real good friend
and i need this so much that i can't life write at the moment.
this is also the problem why i can't talk write ....



.the more you took away yourself.
.the more you are alone.
.the more you talk with your friends.
.the less you are at home.
;D

hate´that i love it.<3

too words.
ugly and silly.
thats me.!

i can't choose between.
-go working-
-or go on this school -

the biggest problem is that my marks change
because i don't want to lern so much in so many time
and i've got so much stress, that my brain explode .

but I want to attend this school it is great
but also horror.!

and i want to work but not now.

the best thing would be if school doesn't end at the evening
like it does now.

something MUST change .
If not i'm going to dead!




.trying to choose.
.try not to loose.
.all have to turn.
.than i can lern.
.lern about life.
.lern to survive.

maul halten .shut up.!

.give me your hand.
i'll go to town.
i want you to understand.
what i have found.
i found a piece of a heart.








.as long as you stand here
i'll be with you.

If u want to go.
I'll stand here to wait for you.
for ever.

my immortal.

this weekend.
no i won't start like that.

when you cryed
i'd wipe away all of your tears.


you can all this fuqqing shit blog .
emo blog because i'm only writing bad things and sad things in it,...


i kissed a boy and i had a problem with them
i don't know why but i cryed the hole saturday night at the
sturmfest .
and i met all kind of people i like but
i didn't care a just cryed
and now i'm in linz again and having trouble with me
and with everything.


.this is the time somehing will change.!

mr.gabriel.

oh my god.

the weekend was damn and shit.

because i was in this famous and really great disco called gabriel or gabe,
and ann was there too because we had said that one day she has to go there...

it was so much great and wonderful because the hole day i had so much fun.
first with my family in the shops and then with an and
rami and in the end i was in dans flat with ann
and then the nightline came and oh it was just great.
i've dance the whole night ..
in the end my feet hurt so much that i changed the shoes with lena
and the nightline back was also much fun.

but i worry about rami and his boystory.
i'm sad ... for her and i want that she gets this boy.
i hope it so much..this is for her and her heart ♥


next week there is the stormparty.
the party is very year and i should really say that.
last year at the stormparty my life really started.!


yeah

i 've missed m blog.!

and now I'm in a hurry because so much people are writing me on wmc.
i've to say bye bye

.life got great.
.life is now.
.maybe it's too late.
.to show you how.
.how to life it like a queen.
.i'll give you a time maschien.
.to send you back on this day.
.the day you thrown your heart away.

talking.? no ! dreaming!

.the weekend was not so bad.
i was in liezen. oh i love this town.
and the best thing i was with my motorbike.
and i met ann again .
and ramii and domii i and muchi and all the other friends i like so much.

i droved home in the dark.
i find it funny but it was very very very cold.
but i loooooove to drive with my motorbike. ♥

I'm laughing .
yeah men are very comlicated...

i don't know want to to and i don't know what i want but I'm trying to
enjoy my life as good as i can.


bye bye baby bye bye.

i'm wirting don't say anything.

heaven- earth- hell





heaven- i want to be but i think 2 days ago was a bit of it.



earth- was yesterday morning and the schoolparty or more probably the school.

hell was all the rest untill now.





i know i'm writing like an very pessimistic person ...
but i can't help myself .

this time i won't write so dramatic:

i've heard many people say,that my hear is great.
with the new color :D

tomorrow the weekend starts and i probably see my friends.







. the raindrops are falling on the cold grey stone.
.the lights aren't that bright.
.a jung men is hanging on his phone.
.no clouds are quiet white.
.but the more you look into your mind.
.the more clearness you'll find.